I Love My Time With Him...

I don't even know where to start? My fella came by last night and we had a nice time. I told him how I don't wanna be a "trick" though he doesn't see me that way, which is nice in this queer society. He came by and we hung out all night, had a nice time. He stripped down to a ck jock strap which was very erotic for me. We enjoyed some drinks together, some fun chat. I enjoy his company so much which scares me. He's got the sweetest smile and fidgety antics which makes him so child like. I told him not to wait almost a week again to come by...I told him I'd go to the islands with him, if only to spend the day with him. I'd love that. He is such a sweet and intelligent character - Waking up next to him was so nice this morning. Having coffee and his touch against mine was so nice. I hate that he had to leave early for whatever reason. It was erotic this morning in bed and I loved every moment of it. I love his touch, I love him kissing me, him touching me. I hate to think I may be falling for this guy - I don't think its the same on his end as he has a much different life than mine. He is a busy guy and that's all good and dandy, I'm not - I've spared the last few nights, hoping he'd pop by - when he didn't, I got on with a simple quiet evening, which I needed anyways, but every night hoped he would come by and that I told him. I hated watching him or knowing he was leaving. I told him how I wanted him to come over with no plans so he could spend the day here with me, or do whatever he wanted to do. I told him I'm up for a day at the beach with him, I'd love a day, a whole day with him, all to myself. To have a guy see me first thing in the morning and not run is a positive lol. I always say, "if he sees me in the morning and stays, hes in" lol. Its not the first time this fella has seen me in the morning and he still comes by - I love his smile and his silliness...I find him sexy and fun that I want to spend more time with him, the more he comes around, the more I want. I want him all for me, I wont lie. I know its not possible. I'm worried about my feelings and don't want to get in too deep, but I will leave it all up to him, I vowed not to email him yesterday and he did email me, just before I was gonna send him my email. So I think he thinks of me. He tells me he wants to "see me now" which is nice - I have to again, enjoy the ride as it could end fast and soon, but I love my time with him....