Time Will Tell...

06:59pm, Incoming Email

OK its just too weird that as I hit on, "Publish Post", I get an email? WTF? Anyways, he thanked me for the "Lightshow", and the coffee. Telling me about his PC still seems fine but hes worried to shut it down and that it may need to "go for a drive every now and then". He went on to tell me that he works late tomorrow and Saturday morning, so it may not be the best wknd now. I wasn't surprised actually, kinda expected that in the back of my mind. Its Thursday and nothing booked. I will let him suggest it, if he wants that to happen. I have to back off, carry on with other people, keep plans. I will try and get ah old of who I actually had plans with and see if I can get together with her. I responded, very brief and to the point. I said to not worry about camping, and that sugar and cream, just for him. Sending that I feel like I was sorta "cunt-ish" but I cant be all ga ga by his plans. I will see if he writes again....
tick tock tick tock

07:21pm

In response to me telling him I bought a bit bottle of vodka and that he wanted to go the weekend after next, I'm OK with it. He response with, "I have everything for camping, don't worry about it" - "lets plan it together this wknd, Sunday morning good for you"? I just wrote, "Sure should be good."
I don't want to have this talk with him anymore, should he respond again, I will respond to any comments or questions, then tell him I had a really shitty day and that I was logging off. I don't want a back and forth tonight. In my mind, end the conversation now, go watch big brother, I need to catch up, and deal with him in the morning. Its me right now, not him. Its all good for him and docent know how I'm being affected. One last one before, its over for tonight.

07:45pm

I responded with, I'm cool to have him over to discuss future plans. Mention of the mistress again, hit a cord in me again which prompted a new email all on its own. I told him how I'm having feelings for him, starting too and don't want to get involved emotionally. How I still want to get together and hang out, do things etc, but that we have to keep it completely platonic. Was a short but sweet email, nothing harsh as I cant possibly at this time say anything of that nature.
I sent that once I realised he would probably be off line the rest of the night - We will see.

06:30am - Friday 26th of August

I know Frank wakes up at 6am, at least that is when his alarm goes off. We occasionally share the odd email in the morning. So far nothing. No response to the email I sent last night, or no good morning email. I'm not sure and hope I haven't insulted him or blown his ego? I know he usually hits the road around 7am, so there is still time to hear from him, but I also wont email him when I get home, just to see what he says. I, at this point, have put the ball in his court and have no choice but to await any kind of communication back. I hope I haven't destroyed a potentially good "friendship" - Time will tell -
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