Well its nice to know my fella still wants to hang around - We had a chat on Saturday when he came over, but who remembers ha ha, both of us drinking and talking and no eating makes for a forgetful night and a massive hang over lol. But on the Sunday, we spent the day together. Headed out to Niagara Falls for the day, spent the whole day together. Nothing physical with the exception of rubbing my legs in the car. I think I have sort of set things straight, telling him I don't need nor do I want, "friends with benefits" or a "buddy". I have mentioned it a few times in the past few weeks. During our back and forth emails the other day, he said he didn't feel bad for anything that has happened, and actually feels quite the opposite. Enjoying my company and time together. He is a sweet man, an intelligent man and a fun guy to be around. I could be with him, if only for a few minutes, everyday. I love his smile and his beautiful eyes. I love the way he talks to me and encourages me. Making plans together is always fun, knowing we have another get together is an awesome feeling, the fact that he wants to still hang out. Ive asked about other men and women. I feel kinda nosy in asking that, but Ive told him I'm having feelings for him and the bull I went through with Rob and that it wasn't anything I ever wish to relive. A friend of mine once said that part of the long overdue, unhappiness I had and shared with Rob, is partly my fault. I was in love with him, fool that I was. I didn't know life without him. When expressing this to my fella, he doesn't give me any blame, rather understands where I'm coming from, so that's nice to hear. Waking up in bed together Sunday past was sort of maddening to me, but not him. He grabbed my hand/arm in bed and placed it on his stomach, telling me he likes it when I rub him there. Morning coffee was and is always nice. Coming home from the falls, we had a bite to eat and a drink or 2 - I questioned him immensely and am learning lots about him. Lots that I don't want to hear but that's an issue I have. I don't think he would hurt me and I have to see how our feelings grow towards each other - I maybe seeing him tomorrow and I look forward to it, that's for sure. I do miss him when I don't see him and await to hear from him first. Last night I sent pictures from our Sunday and that started a conversation. I said I didn't want to be the first to contact him. So this morning I just responded to last nights email that I missed and will leave it at that and see if he or when he contacts me today. I'm trying to enjoy this time with a new guy and see what comes of it. I'm willing to invest time as this guy seems different -
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