Mondays come so fast it seems. My fella asked me to go camping and about making me dinner?? I get worried as I will say yes as I do like him. He made comments about me leaving the village....I do leave the village, I do do other things outside the village, but hes asked to come over so I obliged. He spoke about wanting to spend the wknd with me, which I too will go for, but always worry about what people will discover about me. I mean he spent the night here so he has seen me first thing in the morning and I think thats when Im at my worst so has he crossed that line with me? He sent me an email last night telling me he wanted to be with me, be close to me, which was so nice. I kept re reading that email, no one has said that to me, well maybe since last summers fling, but this fella is much different than last summers mistake. I rehashed that story yesterday morning to him. He was shocked that happened to me and understands where I come from when I mention being afraid to get close to people, trusting people or letting people in my house. Im glad for that as its affected me like nothing before. He speaks of having me over for dinner which I would go for now after having him at place....theres a comfort level there, that I didnt think would be there so soon. I asked if he liked me to which he responded, "of course, would I come over if I didnt?" which is a valid response. I told him it was a dum comment/question and apologized. This situation is new again to me, scary to me. Im enjoying my time with him but worry what will happen, how will this play out? He was sending me erotic photos last night to which I told him to stop, otherwise Id maul him the next time I see him. I need to get out more when he asks, to show that I would do things with him, I would go out places to spend the day with him....Lets see how all this plays out in the days and weeks ahead. Im sorta in the same position as last summer, this exact time - I dont want to relive anything remotely close to last summer - This fella is older and intelligent and dont think he;s playing games but genuinely like me? I think....
Thanks for coming into my life - Lets see what happens :)
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