Wish Me Luck...

So seems Frank is having some drama with a co worker and I await to hear whats going on with that. Last night I went to the pub, chatted with a few people, mainly to scope out this man that messaged me the other night, was kinda freaky so I thought Id tackle that....to no avail, regardless. I came home, smashed and got high. I went on to write Frank an email, which I should never have done, I should have left it at the last one I wrote. I knew he was going out to a show and should have awaited a response later on today. Anyway the last one I wrote last night had me include the "mistress" - I was saying how shes gonna blow him or him fuck her etc...and again!!! what I mean to him as a man?? I was so pissed at myself! Stop it. I think I was just thinking how he can be in public with her, hold her hand or even kiss her etc. The to cover my ass, hopefully I wrote him this morning, basically saying how the email last night just meant that I wanted to be intimate with him, like he is with her. I recall the other night chatting he said, "I fuck her" - I want to be the male version of her! I want him to take advantage of me that way...I want to kn ow what he is like when he is into more than mutual masturbation. I want to make out with him again, be naked in bed and intimate. When I watch porn, gay straight or otherwise, I always think of him and me re-enacting those scenes. When I watch scenes that are similar to things we have done I get so aroused. Anyway I went on to explain that, and asked about "her" is she was Italian, with a name like hers etc. Then went on to tell him about my "stalker" and how the previous email was sent under a cloud of ganja...not drink...but ganja. Then went on to ask about his co worker and what he has heard or not for that matter....I hope it doesn't blow up in my face as I said in last nights email. Hopefully..I started that email with an "lol" so hopefully he gets that I was being silly and stupid and not serious...We will see. I hope to see him tonight but after that I wonder. I'm sure he got his "fill" last night and may not be up to anything intimate, but I guess I await.....wish me luck!!....
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