You know...last nights conversation and this mornings "remembering" are two different stories and that's OK with me - I stiffed my friend last night who kept me waiting for a long time and headed over to franks. I brought wine, we chatted etc. He asked at one point, do you want to talk about "us", I recall...I said sure and then he came back with, we will just touch on this a little bit, we have been drinking etc. He mentioned the ad on CL that ended up in google search. He was glad and thankful that I did, and I did, did whatever it took to remove it from search results on google. He cried a bit at the fact that someone would do that, me. I tried to ensure him, that it would never happen again, that it was a "moment" - He still shed tears and that killed me. I asked a few times about, Katerina. I asked if she knew about me, he said, that she knows he has an "interest in men" - I asked if he loved her and I don't recall the response. He told me he fucks her, which was a slap in the face for me, as that hasn't happened with me and him. I told him I talk/speak of him and it comes across like we are boyfriends. I remember saying something to the effect of, you have Katerina, the women's side, can I be the one, for the men;s side? Again, I don't recall the conversation. I do recall waking up at about 2 or so, and not finding Frank in bed with me. I went out of the bedroom into the living room to find him asleep on the sofa. Initially I was afraid I did/said something that made him not want to sleep with me. But again I went up to him, like I did a few weeks back, and told him to come to bed, and he did. I don't think I said anything to not make him sleep with me. We cuddled together and about another 45 minutes or so in, I had to devour his manhood and make him feel nice, the sounds and actions to my satisfying him were so erotic. The way he moves his body, the sounds he makes, so hot to me. He made some comment about, not being able to come, to which I said, its OK. I wasn't doing that for a climax, but rather on a more selfish reason, I love doing that to him and he has a great body as well as a nice "organ". I stopped after a while and went back to bed. Alarms ring and up I get..Frank laid in bed asleep. I eventually get dressed and made up and eventually go to the bedroom, asking Frank if he had to work in the morning. He said yes and I told him the time and up he went. He went to make on coffee and get into a robe. I have to tell you Frank has the biggest, low hanging balls Ive ever been with, very sexy. Back on track, at one point I asked him, I have 2 questions...one one was of his friend Charlie and they're working relationship...and about 15 minutes later I said, the next question is...."Do you think anything was accomplished between you and me with our chat last night?" - He said he didn't think so. That's not bad or good to me. I could then carry on being silly etc, sharp tongued and all. In the end I took the initiative to get ready for work - grabbed my shoes, jacket on and I bid him goodbye. I/he kissed me on the lips and gave me a hug. I held him tight, kissing the back of his neck. His hands on my upper body and then him saying to me, "You are cute." I said, "You re cuter". A good bye and have a good day and we went our separate ways. Him telling me I was cute out such a spring in my step, it put a smile on my face for the most part of the day. But I don't remember certain parts of last nights conversation and neither does he. So at some point I will have to enquire about certain things, Katerina, boys from after the first one he met, early on in our friendship. I sorta know this is wrong for me. At one point, early this morning before I got out of bed. I was aroused in bed, laying on my back and him on his back next to me. I grabbed his had and led it towards my crotch. I laid it down so he could feel my arousal and he giggled...that was it. I didn't bother doing anything about my situation, but I cant keep my hands off him and I do that, and nada. there have been a few similar situations. I do recall him once saying in conversation, that he was the "man". almost as if to remind me, women don't have dicks to play with and there for its sorta of a stereotype thing between him and I. I will ask him, eventually again about him and I. I tried hard to convince him that my episode, if that's what he wants to call it, was just that, an episode. It happened, and I tried with every ounce of my being to get it removed as I said I would. Cached or not, it will no longer show up in results. I hope this means something to him, shows him something about me. His, "you're cute comment" honestly put me over the moon and I hope there is more he sees. I'm not sure if I told him this, but will say it again to him. When I said or say, "he is beautiful/you are beautiful"...it is not just on a physical level. He is smart, intelligent, worldly a million times more than me, so I feel an idiot around him. He doesn't make me feel like on at all..quite the opposite, very supportive of me in many ways. An all around good guy...
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