I Feel A Fool...

When I left Franks place on Tuesday morning I felt off, something wasn't right, off. I had and have had Frank on my mind since then. I wrote him yesterday although I said I wouldn't, but I said that I apologised for expressing my feelings for him, that maybe its made this odd between us, and that I wanted to see him. I called the night before last and no response. I got an email back last night saying that he felt bad I had had a bad day and the there was no need to apologise for expressing my "desires". He said he is happy to be friends but more, he isn't sure. That he doesn't want to hurt me but to just be upfront. That was such a slap in the face especially after my birthday, the events of that week. I wrote back that I understood, but really I dont. I went on to send an email saying that I need him to explain why we did what we did on my birthday, was is part of a "gift" that if he thinks I'm there for fun only, he should know I'm not like that. I sent another one telling him that I think he did lead me on and asked in another why he didn't take my calls? I don't expect any answers and reply emails. This Sunday is the vinyl cafe, I doubt he will ask me. I asked ab out new years but that wont be happening either. I wont be emailing him unless its a response to him email. I'm so hurt and wish Id never met him, I fell in love again!! He knows that! How do I remain friends with someone I am in love with. Stay in love with someone Ive had to share over the last 5 months, and tried so hard to not let that part of his life bother me?! How do I carry on with friends now that he is not part of that special part of my life. I feel a fool....