Well no update to be had last night - not a peep, not a hello no nothing. Ill go with the thought that he was busy or had an simple evening, but don't buy it. I'm sure he is just avoiding me. I will ask what he has been up to since its been all week since Ive seen him. Tonight I have a family dinner so I will be distracted again which is good. He is the one who mentioned Saturday to put up my TV, so I will leave it up to him to get in touch with me. I hope he emails me but today, not banking on it. I'm not sure if he is working this weekend but we will see what happens as the day/wknd goes on. I was thinking last night, I think initially there was some form of attraction between us, on both ends, I think that has waned. I miss him immensely and want to see him. In the beginning he wanted to see me all the time, came by to see me etc and that too has waned. I wish I had more of a life but I don't, its a simple quiet one. He may think otherwise but he would be wrong. I think my email about being exclusive "buddies" threw him off and for some reason I'm expecting some comment or chat about that if and when we see each other this weekend. If he comes over tomorrow, it will be the first time in over 2 months that he is here. If he comes tomorrow, I will offer to pay for parking as a thank you but payment will be delayed intentionally as Ive done enough as far as I am concerned. I couldn't leave those dinner coupons with him, knowing he would go with the gf, I expected us to do that which we will at some point, but I'm not pushing that one either. At this point, it is up to him to contact me. I will be inquisitive with him but coy and distant. Things may be changing? Not sure what is up for NYE but that is up to him as well. I wont mention it again. I say that now, but it wont happen, but will try my best. Ive done good to not email him the rest of Thursday and today so far. I know he awakes at 6-ish so he is probably up, but nothing yet and am not banking on a good morning email...
We will see again how it goes....not banking on much...
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