Am I? Can I Be?

So Tuesday night after a night at the theatre, I had a message from Frank, asking me over and regardless of time, I love spending time with him and went on over. Got there past 11pm, but made it. We had a few drinks together and a few smokes, listened to a radio program and then went on to chat and mess around. I told him how I think of him all day when I'm not with him, how I have no dramas in the world. We went to bed and woke up together which I love. We were yakking in the morning, over coffee. He told me a few disturbing things that made me leave kinda pensive, kinda sad. I asked if hes met anyone since me, and this time he told me he met one. That sorta upset me. I told him, Ive met no one. He told me he has seen my ad, which I threw up while we weren't in cahoots, since we have connected again, nothing. He asked about responses to my ad and I told him that they were freaks and Ive met no one. He told me I should meet others and that too set me off. I asked him if he could drive me home as I came straight from the theatre and he told me, "I'm not a cab" and that was the third thing that made me feel like a shit. He said on the drive to my place, that he didn't mean for it to sound bitchy, but that it wasn't always possible. I still felt like a shit and broke down in tears when I got home. He told me how he would meet up with someone just to show off in his fetish gear, but not sex, that its too dangerous. But seriously, you think someone will invite you over to put on a show and not want to get off?? I saw that he was on craigslist when I got there, looking for a ride to Montreal. I asked when he was going and with whom? He told me he was going alone and that it was for this weekend. I was a bit thrown by that, as I was hoping we could have a night together on the long weekend, so I don't think that is happening,. I said to him in the evening, after the show, that I wanted to go on a proper "date" with him. He told me how Niagara was a date, I said yea it was a while ago, was a fun "date" but Id like to go on another so we will see. I emailed him yesterday saying Id love to go over and hang out with him and that it wouldn't be as late at the night before, but he had gone to a conference and had gotten home late and there was another today, so it went no where. I said that it was too bad Id loved to have seen him. I sent a good morning email today and said that hopefully we see each other before he leaves for the wknd. Ill have to see how and when he responds. In the evening and morning, he held my hand, I love when he does that. He inches close to me for me to kiss him and I love that too. What am I to him!? I want and need to know. In a earlier emails when we met, he said he was looking for "one guy" - well so am I and I wish he could be my "one guy" - A guy who wants to be with me and only me. So he is bisexual, that's no issue, for now? But it would be awesome if he told me, that at the moment at least, I am the "one guy" for him. Am I, can I be?
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