I Enjoy Every Minute Of "Us" ...

I knew it would be about 5 days or so that I would not see Frank....Knowing he is busy and having had seen him, made it easier to think I wasn't going to see him. Finding out he wasn't busy for the first 2 nights of the 5 sorta bugged me, I wont lie. I hate to think I don't hear from him or what not. I didn't expect to see him yesterday. I went out for dinner with a friend, hopped on over to the pub across road and had another drink and sent on an email. Telling him I was going to see my mom tomorrow(today) and that maybe when his night was over, we could get together and hang out and go to the show tomorrow etc...I got an email back shortly thereafter telling me to "get a taxi" - I asked "to your place?" - I didn't need to get a response, before I went to change, get my shit together and get a cab. I arrived and told him I was fried.He said not to worry. He had dipped into the vino as well. I hate that I drink so much with him only because I remember snippets of our nights and or conversations. I do remember professing my utter adoration for him. I remember sitting across from him, shedding a tear or 2 at my admitting how I feel. How I wish I was the "one guy" - him looking at me with puppy dog eyes, just listening to me. I was drinking out of a small glass as I was already a bit looped but finished one more and said, I was going to go to bed. He was making a stew and once I was in bed, I saw him grab a big bowl of it and chow down. I got out of bed and he grabbed me as mall bowl and I had some myself. He eventually was sitting next to me on the sofa. At one point I grabbed his hand, I love holding his hand. That's what I remember from last night. I remember him also getting into bed. He wore a tshirt and a jock strap to bed - that man is too fucking sexy without even knowing it. I woke up at one point early early morning and saw him laying next to me. I put my arms around him. I just cuddled up beside him, my body next to his, I love that. Feeling his arm as I lay next to him is one of the best feelings with him. We don't have a rampant sexual relationship, more sensual than sexual and that's fine with me. The more he learns about me, the more I can show him that I am a decent guy, it could progress. I want to kiss him, I want him to rub up against me, his head against my neck, I love that. This morning we had coffee and some chit chat - Eventually he told me he had a busy day. I over heard him on the phone telling a co worker that he will be busy or unavailable after 5 or so. We left his place and I walked home. Couldn't give him a goodbye kiss there on the street but wanted to. We are meeting tomorrow at the theatre for the show, not sure how he is getting there and whats to follow afterwards but I look forward to it, spending day time with him. I hope he believes and understands that I am genuinely in love with him and care for him like I haven't cared for anyone in the longest time. Hes a marvel to me and I enjoy every minute of "us" -
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