Fantasy World...

You know I don't know why Frank doesn't feel the need to contact me? He responded to my request about putting my TV up, he told me "yes i can do that" and I said, when you have time - I'm not going to ask him when, he knows, if he thinks of me then he should come at some point. He mentioned going for coffee before or after work sometime this week. I want it today, I miss him and want to see him. I think one thing I will ask if and when we get together for coffee is, what does he do with his evenings, since for the last 4-5 weeks or more, we have been together about 5 out of 7 days of the week. He told me he is kind of "asexual" since this std scare has come into play. I may get results today, I hope to put my mind sort of at east. As I said before I think I went too early for a test but am seeing my doctor in about 3 months or so and will explain this to her and get tested again. I will pass this info on as well and go from there. I don't think he misses me as I miss him. He may miss me out of habit but probably that's it. The routine used to be, get home, freshen up and on line together yakking and making plans etc. The last week or so - nope. I wont be emailing him this morning or anytime soon, I will have to await any email and respond to him. I am supposed to be weaning myself off of the anti depressant I was prescribed due to issues earlier this year, but have gone back to full dose as I am depressed/sad about this situation. Friends have told me, Frank is no good for me. When Ive explained certain situations, they think he is wrong. Yea I flew off the handle in email, that cant possibly be enough as I was out of my mind. Yes they were harsh words and may have shown a side that is not known even to me, but I guess that demon has scared Frank this way. I don't know why this went as it did but it has. I have to carry on and not think of him though it is easier said than done, when meeting someone like Frank sorta was changing the way I live life. I hope he misses me , I hope he wants to get tight again, but that is all in a fantasy world :(
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