Tick Tock Tick Tock....

The last few days have been interesting with my fella. A bit of a health scare, and awaiting results on his end. He asked to come over 2 nights ago to talk about the health scare. It led to the following day, me, holding back tears and in dire need of a drink from the moment I awoke, or had to face people. Trust me when I say, I accomplished my mission of drinking myself silly to forget any potential dramas. Felt like crap the next day, but it was needed. Last night my fella told me I could go there for the evening, but I responded with, maybe a nice quiet in, for the both of us is needed. He eventually bid me a "night night", which I picked up at 3am after passing out on the sofa.
This morning, Ive yet to hear from him, but believe in the next little bit I will. I sent him an email this morning, telling him how I wished he was next to me this morning. I do miss it. Although our sex life isn't in full swing, I like the pace its going at, but when he isn't in my bed I feel I miss him so. Ive turned down plans with others, in hopes of us getting together, doesn't always work, but usually he is up to hanging out with me. I jokingly asked him if today, he was up to throwing a TV up on a wall? lol. He said one day he would put my flat screen on the wall, so I threw it out there and I'm only kidding. Its a way to lure him here. We've mentioned getting together for a swim in the building in the past, and I don't think he has even seen the pool ha ha. He just emailed me with info about the clinic and told me he is off to the island for a few hours and that we would talk later. I just wrote back, OK. Maybe spending the day together is out, possibly this evening, I don't know. I was sorta hoping, if anything, to be asked, but no. I feel more for him than he does me, this I know. No response to my comments in the earlier email. Oh well, this boy can try and see, it doesn't always work out.
I will take this day a it comes and see what happens as the hours pass. I have no plans so I will play it by ear. I'm sure I will be back later on this weekend for sure. Tick tock, Tick tock...
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