Im Worth More....

Well my ex fella never got back to me. I wrote an email telling him how its the 3rd time he has stood me up since we have known each other. How I am done with him. He wrote back at midnight saying he did not stand me up, that he would email me when he got in and he just had. That my email was insulting. Fuck you! I cried myself to sleep again cuz I was looking forward to seeing him and that all fell on deaf ears. I wrote back this morning, saying I don't mean to be insulting, that i just miss him. We will see if he responds to me. Where was he last night, giving STD's to other unknowns?? I know that's harsh, but its where m y mind goes. I said to him, I email you and get no response? That is what is insulting. I wrote him on Tuesday and got no response, that is what is insulting if you are a friend?? I'm not making any effort anymore. If he asks to get together, if he asks to speak, then I will otherwise, like I said in my last email last night, "I'm done" - Ive haven't been this hurt since Jonathon. In a sick and twisted way, I almost hope I have something so I can throw it in his face, and blame him. He has me all wrong, and doesn't understand that I am an emotional person. How hurtful it is to hear that he shagged 2 guys before me, without protection and not letting me know, that's how he rolls. Now we both, potentially, have an STD and I have him to thank. I'm not sure if he will respond to my email this morning, If not in the next hour or so, then he is ignoring me and that's how it will stand. I sent a check to cover part of the costs, he incurred while knowing me, but last night I thought, it wasn't my fault at all, so I stopped payment. He must have received the check and letter by now, I sent it out first thing Wednesday morning, before first pick up, and its been 2/3 days. No mention of it, no nothing. I will not contact him unless he contacts me, a response yes, initiation, no. I'm so sad the last week or so and should realize, if he liked me to any capacity, he would be more chatty with me and he isn't. I'm worth more...
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John Frank Bentley, 52, bisexual, who shags bareback with strangers and a woman isnt worth my time!