Sad But True...

Well last night I confirmed to myself, I want minimal if anything to do with my fella. Early on in the weekend he asked me over. He was drunk that I know, he asked me over to discuss things. Well he went away for a golf weekend and was away Sat/Sun, my last email to him was Saturday, asking if he wanted me to come over to discuss etc. Last night upon his arrival home from his weekend, he wrote as told me he wasn't ignoring my emails, that he was away, that he had a good wknd and thanked me for asking, and hoped mine was good. I responded saying I wasn't thinking he was ignoring my emails, just that I was responding to his emails.Then asked why he invited me over. I was told that his invite was a mistake, drunken no less. I told him that it was fine as he also said we can remain friends, go for coffee or a day together...I said, fine you let me know. Then he wrote another email saying, to not ever hope for a restart on the sexual side of life, I again wrote back - OK. He said we would do coffee this week and again, I wrote, OK let me know. Part of me wants to delay the first coffee date and reschedule. Part of me wants to go for it when he asks wondering if he wants money as discussed last week, which I wont be giving him. I have no understanding as to why we stopped seeing each other, why he says I left him etc. Why no more sexual contact, is there no attraction, is there someone else? Does he think I could have given him something? There is no understanding and for that reason I cant carry on. I wont be telling him this any time soon just to see where it carries on from there. It was a bit hurtful when I read the email telling me not to dream of us getting back together, it hit a nerve in me, one that wants to cut him off completely. There is no explanation to his words and his actions. I'm one that needs to understand, make sense of a situation and I cant with this one, therefor there is nothing more. I wont be initiating any contact and I think he will understand or get the hint when my emails stop. Flattery and a letting him know how I feel or felt are a thing of the past. He, like Rob did with our relationship, is a thing of the past. No more effort to be put in as I didn't deserve or understand what was going on -
I to a point regret meeting Frank, I enjoyed my time with him, but I'm just leaving it at a cyber friendship and that's all, in my efforts at least.
Sad but true...
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