Somehow I managed to not email Frank. Good on me!! It was hard and sad to think I cant or don't want to as I'm wasting MY time, not his. I'm not so concerned with his to be honest after having him talk to me as he has and what not. His drunken stupidity is OK, i.e, Friday nights invite, mine is reason to end things and then be blamed on me for leaving him? His last email told me that he would let me know when we will do coffee this week sometime. I was thinking, will I, wont I?? I will if only to see him, BUT if he thinks I will be issuing any cash, that will be a conversation on its own and could end friendship when I tell him I wasn't the one who was irresponsible. I had offered at the time, the offer doesn't stand forever. He should have taken advantage of my stupidity at the time, Ive smartened up. Again this morning I haven't emailed him and wont. I kn ow he is awake and probably checked emails. He doesn't wanna write me that's fine, nice friend? If he cared and knowing how sad I am about our situation, you would think he would send one seeing how I am? Nope. He wants me to be the one in this friendship to initiate any communication, not gonna happen. He has laid down the law and I will abide, I wont give in but I will abide. No communications, Ive done enough of that. He doesn't want to discuss anything and for me that doesn't work. I have no answers, nothing that is valid to me and to continue on, not knowing it hard for me. I will let all this known at some point. Ive told him that when he wants to talk/hang with a genuine friend who cares for him, to call on me, but I'm not going pursue it. I wonder what Friday will be like, will he start drinking and ask me over again? If he does, I am going over, but doubt that will happen. I'm just saying, to get him on his drunken stupidity. He wont be meeting me for coffee as its too late already but apparently sometime this week, so we will see. I haven't seen him in over 2 weeks and miss him, but am mad at him for letting things go as they have. They have all been his decisions, not mine so I'm standing back -
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