Who Knows...

Well I got a response from Frank...Turns out he thanked me for the email and that he is a caring friend, that it is up to me if I want this or not. I said "OK I will leave any form of friendship in his hands" - He wrote back saying he will try and grab me for coffee sometime this week, before or after work. I said that was fine, but along with the email he attached a photo of himself in CD wear. I asked why the photo and sent on a rude one as well with, "tit for tat" - he said it was for fun, to make me laugh. I told him I wanted to explore that side of him but that never flourished. I then thought, right, I'm going to get rude. What do I have to lose. I asked him if he wanted to come over sometime and get off together, some porn and some of his little fantasy things such as panties etc. He wrote back with an, lol and maybe, but that he was kind of asexual at the moment, at least until we get results. I said, this is why I mentioned getting off, no touching. He wrote that he wasn't doing that either lately. I said, well if you want to sometime, maybe fwb? No response. I sent an email a while later asking if he would still consider putting up the TV on my wall, as I know firstly he can do it properly and then to have him here. I don't know what I want with him. Today is the first time hes mentioned meeting up for a coffee. I wish I could be an asshole and just tell him to fuck right off. Love/like gets in my way and I crumble. I really do want to see him again but don't know how I will be with him, how I will react. He wants a friendship that's fine but I want more and this he knows. I said in my earlier email this morning, I know he has an ego, confidence and how I was finding my own thanks to the way he spoke to me, treated me, but in the end I messed up. Seriously I find it hard to believe that email barrage is the gist of our break up? He could be that intelligent to get insulted at that or not like it as he says he isn't insulted, yet he is careless in his sexual escapade? If and when we should become FWB, even then I will stipulate that we can do it, but should he go elsewhere, apart from the gf, I need to know and I would do the same. What world do I live in? Whats going to happen here?
Who knows....
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